GET IT ALL DONE

The last month has been a mental battle for me. The battle to GET IT ALL DONE. When my eyes open every morning, I check the clock and make sure its an appropriate hour to get going. If I get up before 6 I will be pooped by 10 am so I always try to get that extra hour of shut eye.
Change baby, make coffee, make baby breakfast, wash bottles, dishes, try to get things as tidy as possible, by then its snack time and soon will be time for a feeding and nap. During that morning nap of Sawyer's, I fight off the urge to lay down with him although I am usually ready! I gotta shower and sometimes if I miss my naptime opportunity I will be regretting it while I rush through a shower to get to my very angry baby as he does not appreciate the fact that I stick him in the crib to be safe while I remove the layer of stink from my body. Once I am clean I try to tidy up the upstairs (bathroom, trash, make bed) and what do you know its already lunch time! Sawyer has been such a messy eater lately that sometimes I bump bathtime up from after dinner to after lunch time, so by that the time nap time arrives he will be squeaky clean and comfy. The hour before afternoon nap time is probably the longest of the whole day, especially since Sawyer became this ball of energy and loves to play, be entertained and play some more. Once we make it to afternoon nap time I can get a few FUN ME-TIME things done, which is a daily goal for me. I guess the balance really is the toughest challenge. Balancing my mommy duties with my Jenny needs.

Now, four hours later I will try to pick up where I left off. Today during my "Jenny time" I mostly sorted through my clothes, elimiminating the really unflattering items as I feel like I have to try so so soooo much harder now to feel cute even 20% of the time. So "Jenny time" sometimes turns into laundry/cleaning time. Keeping the place at least livable is a struggle for me, but I strive for a clean house. I do some sort of chores everyday but somehow the place is still a trainwreck constantly. As long as the floors are clean and laundry and dishes are kept up that's about the best I can do. And I have to accept that. I could spend every spare minute of my time sweeping and dusting and putting the toys back in the box for the 400th time but instead I also have to find time for my creative outlets. Its really my duty to myself that I get at least a few minutes of fun everyday. What I really am striving for is a few hours a week ALL ALONE to work on my hobbies. But like everything else, being the me I want to be is a constant work in progress. Since I got lots of crafting done early this morning during some down time tonight I am enjoying a lovely fire that I prepared earlier this morning. Of course, I have to put my dining chairs up in front of it to keep the baby away, its still really nice to have a few minutes of quiet while the baby plays to type. I feel once I clear out some of my thoughts on my blog I have room for more fresh, inspired thinking. Just gives me some perspective once I see things out in black and white.Well, now its time for Sawyer time, and snuggling on the couch sounds like a great idea....